obeythiskiid:

she’s gonna hate me for this, but i owe it to her for being such a douchebag earlier. see the very first picture of her in her “Dead Alice in Wonderland costume”? yeah, that was the very first picture she sent me when we first started talking to each other. she showed me what she was gonna be for Halloween 2 years ago. and i still have that picture. why? cause it’s a reminder of the first time we started talking and that i’ll always love her. see the picture of her and her little brother? he’s my little bro too. her little brother and I were so close. I went from playing cars almost every chance i could, to not even being able to see him anymore because of complications. and i miss the damn kid more than ever….</3 now if you scroll down some more, and you see the picture of her taking pictures of herself in that beautiful dress with her hand behind her back….yeah, i kept that one just because she still looked beautiful, even from the first day i met her. why do i have it? as a reminder that i still love her. keep scrolling and now you see pictures of her where her pictures are being taken, right? that’s when she first got into her modeling. the one where her hand is on the rail, and the one going horizontal, was when she had her very first photo shoot. wanna know why i still have it? because even if she didn’t get into being a model….she’s still the most beautiful girl on this earth to me. you scroll down and right after her modeling pictures, is a couple more modeling pictures, where she recently had her hair dyed blonde, to be in this modeling or fashion show in Nebraska. she had to leave school a little bit earlier to get down there in time for it. why do i still have those pictures? because even if she’s changed, because she was kinda forced to……she’s still the same gorgeous girl to me. and now you’ve come down to the last picture and it’s her in her black dress. wanna know what i have to say about this one? she’s still that beautiful girl i’ve met from almost 2 years ago. except, she’s grown a whole lot from then. she means everything to me. i hate the fact that she’s growing up so fast. she’ll be 17 in July. only 2 1/2 - 3 more months. and no matter what….she’s still always gonna be my baby girl. even if she’s moved on from me, and found someone else. even if she’s fell inlove and got married and was happy….she’ll still always be my baby….why? because she’s the one who taught me so much for almost 2 years. she taught me that love exists at first sight… (excuse me while i’m writing this with tears coming down my face ) she taught me that even though we may fight and argue…we can always fix it, and become stronger…she taught me, that true love doesn’t always exist in fairy tales…it can happen in real life. and i believe that i’ve found my Cinderella. never in my life, have i ever felt anything so strong for someone. i doubted myself and had so much low self esteem, that i was so close to giving up…until she showed up in my life. she’s been the one i could always come to for help or advice…why? cause she’s my bestfriend. she’s been my bestfriend since the first day of school last year when she was a new student. i took one look at her, and something just clicked. then i knew i had to make her mine somehow…….so guess what happened about a year later on the night of August 16, 2012? she became mine. and ever since then, i was the happiest kid alive. i felt like a little kindergartener who got a nice bright red crayon, that would promise to always take care of it, and never let it break because it was fragile…and she’s like that. a fragile crayon, that i promised i would take care of….and here i am, earlier fighting with her and pushing her away because i was so upset, that it cost me no texts from her the rest of the night….so this was to make up for it. and baby, i’m sorry. for being this little immature kid who couldn’t handle their baby going to prom with someone else. i trust you with everything in me, and i will always love you. please remember that. you’ll always be the one tattooed in my heart. you’re not leaving my mind, my heart, or my soul. you’re in there forever. you’re the first and only girl i’ve ever spent this much time and effort on. but in the end, you were worth it. and you still are worth it. you’ve taught me so much, and i’ve learned along the way. 8 months ago, was the best day of my life, when you became mine. i’m lucky that i have one of those girls, that any guy would chase after and make you theirs in no time. and even if you’re not mine now, because of the way i acted earlier, just know that mentally…..you’re still my one and only. and my forever. i don’t want anyone else. because i’m inlove with you.